What's next?

In an attempt to find myself – I instead have lost myself in 2 very real, fiction characters.

Every now and then– I do what I can to account for the last month of my life – however, in doing this; I am force to admit my affections towards my loving companions Edward and Patch. How odd, and utterly depressing it is too drool over 2 men who obviously only exist in a women’s dreams.

Why must these authors do this to me!?

Having once (or twice – okay MAYBE… a million times over until my sisters ears were bleeding!) I mentioned to my amazingly witty older sister Ang my undying love for Edward. I swore there would never be another so - charming, indulgent, dangerous -mouthwatering- ummmmm…. But I keep hearing these two small words – almost a whisper – Hush Hush…. This led to Patch…UGH!

SOOO, naturally to bounce back from my depression officially leaving Edward in Bella’s arms (sadness) I rushed to the book store and picked up Hush Hush (Becca Fitzpatrick)… 1 week later – done and done – depressed ever so slightly because now I not only lust after 1 fiction character but 2!

Trying to calm my nerves – I decided to pick up a number of books that would take my mind away from the angst of teen paranormal romance. Okay, ready for the embarrassing part?

AGAINST – my amazingly witty, slightly shorter, older sister Ang – I picked up Dead Until Dark (Charlaine Harris) THINKING in some way an adult romance with a vampire spin would take my mind off of the unnecessary unmentionables of YA books. Nearly done, I feel I am losing my mind – Sookie, I do apologize for the rude comment I am about to make towards your intelligence – BUT you might want to consider furthering your education. As I read the Twilight saga or the Hush Hush saga, my angry stemmed from a place of love and sorrow and SIMPLY wanting the 2 who should be in love to prevail! If I am going to be honest, one of my favorite things about Nora is that she dressed extremely cute! And yet, yesterday I found myself disgusted with the simple fact that Sookie was going to wear a Mickey Mouse shirt to bed! At that point, maybe sometime before, I decided this book is stupid.

SO because I am for some ungodly reason committed to at least finishing this book-where do I go from here? Which fictional hunk will I fall for next???!!!!

Obsessions

On occasion, I have become moderately obsessive about “things”.

For example, Pirates of the Caribbean…

When the first Pirates movie came out, I was in love. And by the time the third and at the time final movie came out, I was depressed. I had no clue what I was going to do. In order to keep the spirit of the pirates in me, I started naming my cars.

A little background information-which sadly my family can attest to-I go through cars like-like-like bags of coffee. Perhaps not that frequently, but pretty darn close- therefore-

Car 1. (Which actually was Car 2, because I totaled the first one-however Car 1 was named Audrey-which had nothing to do with pirates- but just wait…)

Anyway back to Car 1. Jack Sparrow

Car 2. Elizabeth Swan

Car 3. The Black Pearl (a little black smart car-rather cleaver)

(I realize now I left out a car – Crush-the sea turtle…)

So, in a way my obsessive nature led me to getting into as many fender benders in order to complete the trio of Pirates J

------- yet, this is something completely different----all together

I am not sure what type of obsessive behaviors will result for my current distractions ---- But I would like to formally apologize to all Twilight fans for ever having judge you in the slightest bit---please forgive me *wink*

Update-finished New Moon in less than 48 hours – 200 pages away from finishing Eclipse --- <3 <3 <3

new moon - in the forecast

Wow…

How my life has changed-in so many ways-over the last week.

And all of this sings the lullaby of Edward.

Yes! I realize I am years behind, but if for one moment I am able to bring fellow lovers of Edward back to their beginnings, I will die a happy person.

“Trust me just this once - you are the opposite of ordinary.”

Oh my heart melts! His words…. Baaaahhh! I hate you-not really-yet I love you OH so much… A little over the top?? Well, I don’t so much care… ;)

Honest to God, I have no idea what the following books hold for me or my life… however, I am constantly in shambles trying to figure out this Jacob-Edward situation…. I understand that eventually there may be a Jacob relationship that cultivates, but how the heck can anyone forget how beautiful-intoxicating-mouthwatering-blushing- EDWARD IS? I have terrified to start the next book, I have a feeling my heart will be ripped out… but I must continue on – because in the words of my big sister Ang, “All will be well… Read on”   

Carry on...

I am taking only but a moment to briefly update you on the happenings of my life. 

For starters, I love Edward. 

Wow, I just said it. 

For many years, I have avoided those 3 words, but now they flow so easily from my lips stained red with vino. This is ridiculous, no wonder women and girls all over the word have sleepless nights! I have considered it! However, after todays awful display of teaching, I figure sleepless nights are not the way to go. I also have this fear! It is a fear that I often have when reading a great story, and that is, IT WILL EVENTUALLY END! And then what!? I will go on searching for closure, fulfillment, or sadly, Edward. You must understand one thing, I am barely into the first book, and I am emotionally blah. This is an insane rollercoaster that brings life and darkness into my very unstable life, it will eventually balance out, and that, I am sure of. ;)

Carry on…   

Day 1 of FREEDOM

Well, I am done.I just submitted my final paper! Which means I have a lot of work to do.
One of the items on my list of things I will finally do when I am done with my masters is to read the Twilight saga...

I realize I am way behind on this, however, better late than never. So, literally ten minutes ago I bought the book on my Kindle. 


Another item on my list of things to do, is to get serious about running. My first race in on May 5th. It's a 5K Race for the Cure. On Friday I received my shirt and number in the mail! I know my dad will be running with me and I am so excited to make him proud. I plan on giving cancer the big F U!

So, with that said, I now must find out what the big hype is about this vampire situation. ;)